This was written on 10 December 2021.
I sit here in a bar writing my annual review for 2021. I realise how much value I place in the feeling of COMPLETION, how relieving it is to have nothing else to resolve in the project. I should pursue that more often as the motivator to finish my own shit. Open loops take their own on the mind, constantly occupying headspace, and adding to the anxiety of having infinite work.
This brings me back to how Tiago said confusion between Projects and Areas is the singular frustration in the workplace. I guess that lack of clarity is that regard is akin to signing yourself to slavery without a set end date. A truly terrible fate in the loss of a fundamental freedom. I wonder how much value can be achieved if people are more educated in (and willing to) making that distinction.
Why does it matter? Isn’t that still something to be done?
Aha maphilo, this is playing 4D chess. Just as you wouldn’t sprint all out in a marathon, you wouldn’t spend all your effort in the routine work of an Area. In fact, you would be running as CONSISTENTLY SLOWLY as possible.
The perk of this is that it’s less tiring. With that reserves, when a new Project comes that’s more interesting, high leverage, profitable or just plain more fun, we have the reserves to pursue them.
It is just as important to do work that matches your mood. Even now, I’m blinking back the haze of the lunch coma even though this can be considered pretty intense work. It’s not quite working on a piece of writing than it is just typing out words and organising them into semi-coherence with shit spelling (you’re drunk). In a way, I feel that this is a dance between my consciousness demanding the feeling of completion, and my subconsciousness refusing to give up its gifts without the courtesy of giving the body enough sleep. (HOLY SHIT IT’S AT 333 WORDS BEFORE THE BRACKETS)
It is small joys and coincidences like these that make life happy to live in, but doesn’t quite advance civilisation’s reach. I’m pretty sure it’s desire that drives founders to pursue hundred-million startups that implement magic. Looking back, I guess there’s a point in stating desire as a conscious need to pursue something and so to be unhappy. Really, thank those who have made themselves unhappy for the sake of humanity.
Back to the dance. I guess everything I want to achieve in… every aspect of my life can be likened to a dance. The effortless movements expressing something other than cold utility. Such a performance needs either detailed(? Can’t find the right word, I’m being a dumb shit.) preparation or an ingrained mastery in the field. If nothing else is, being a Master at conversations would be the most worthwhile to attend to. I want to discover the inner world of others, and discover/appreciate the richness within.